The date is set, the wedding is at the end of the month. I can hardly believe that it is going to be happening. There was a time a year ago where marriage was the furthest thing from my mind. I wasn’t concerned about it, but now I’ve found myself embroiled in it. I was leery when I arrived and people immediately began to speak to me about it. I knew it was important, but I still wasn’t ready for it.
Joining the Knights again was a relief at first, it helped put off the need to decide, but then things with Kat… well in the end things have all worked out for the best. She is a good match, she’s had children before, she is well established as a a noblewomen, plenty of money and is a kind woman. Yet beyond that, she and I became friends first and our feelings have developed as we got to know each other. I do think I love her.
Ariel… he cautioned me about going into it loving her already. Pragmatic is the approach he would advise. I understand his words, his suggestion being that it’s easier to find a place for someone else, to meld your lives together and have the love grow than to go in loving and try and fit each other in. We haven’t exactly done it, but in our own way, we sort of have, by being friends first for a while.
It’s now come to the wedding and I’m looking forward to it now, I’m actually eager and I’m looking forward to being a father. Not just to have heirs (though lord knows that is something I desperately need), I actually wish to have children of my own. I don’t know how many we have, we will leave that to the Lord, but we will cherish each and every one of them.