So, the Troubadours were taken to the Guard Quarters for questioning, and Regilus knew. I knew I was done the second that he wanted to talk to me first. He basically gave me life in Ahalin for being in the Brotherhood. I didn’t want to deal with it, so I chose to make a deal to confess in exchange for death.
I’m so arien tired of living with all of this sin, all the secrets. I was Tenebrae until I quit. I was the one to kill Kirop, and I ordered the hits on Myles and Sanna.
I know why it happened. It’s my consequence for being a coward, for not being stronger and more loyal. I deserve to die for what I’ve done, and I know it.
I hope that everyone can find it in their hearts to forgive me for what I’ve done. Especially Finn. He’s better off without the risk that I represent, that I represented from the very beginning.
I hope that he can forgive me one day.
I hope that he can find it in his heart to love me still, because I’ll love him until the stars fall and Heaven itself lies in ruins.
I hope he loves me enough to do the hardest thing of all:
Let me go.