The days pass so slow, I live in most moments as a lonely woman.. The sunshine of my life is however Lis. She is a beautiful child, all the good of myself and Kaerrick combined in one being. For as much as I desired her to be a fighter like us I think she should become a dancer, performer.. but she’ll of course have to be groomed to take the Baronial seat.. I am just a pretty figurehead for the time, seeing things remain steady and trades make it through the pass when it is not closed up. A terrible thing to be in charge of a land you know so little of- thank Dav for the advisers that are in place.
I have finally decided to come out of my mourning clothing, seven months after his death. And on that very same day I met with Tomas, Count of Vees. It couldn’t be helped, my staring.. So improper but so unstoppable. He has no eyes for me, and it should be that way, for hardly knows me. His tanned and time tested skin, those blue eyes.. not quite the same sapphire blue but so rich.. His hair.. Muscular build.. Lord strike me down if Samantha noticed the longing look I had in my pale eyes for that man to hold me and assure me the world wasn’t as bad as I believe it to be. It was good, to have not met him alone..
A woman but still a girl in so many ways..
