I saw this forum thread with some surprise. Without detracting from the issue at hand, I would like to clarify my situation, since there seems to be some confusion in a critic's post as to what happened to establish my inactivity.
This year has been a tough one for me, personally and professionally. In short, I:
1. Have had sub-acute appendicitis that still persists, and has left me in a lot of pain in intermittent bursts;
2. Have had to travel back and forth to Britain to finalize my degree;
3. Am dealing with especially difficult (and very private) family issues;
4. Have started a new job that's been overwhelming; and
5. Have been suffering with depression and anxiety since completing my Ph.D. This in particular has made human interaction very challenging.
Yes, I am getting help.
These things have made it difficult for me to do a great deal at the moment, beyond what I can manage in terms of keeping my head above water. Voxumo, you made a comment about my not informing staff about being away. One of them was made very aware of everything that was happening, because they were a personal friend of mine and had witnessed, first hand, just how much I've been struggling in keeping up some of my commitments. After a phone conversation about what was going on, I found Shaylei stripped of her noble title a week and a half later.
This problem arose because I misunderstood the policy note on activity. After attempting to become active (with three and a half hours in one week, after fifteen hours two weeks before that), and asking for a revision on the decision based on by misreading of what was required of me, I was told that there was nothing they could do. Do I agree with this decision? No. The Inquisition struggles to attract noble characters, and the Charali Colonization Initiative didn't attract many applications to begin with. Given my personal circumstances, I probably would have appreciated a little more leeway, since I was excited about ramping up my RP when I
could return.
I agree with the people who have said that the IC post was too much. It is one of the reasons why I have made the decision to not return to TI. This is especially saddening and difficult for me, since I have established a lot of friendships over the years in the game, and have worked hard to make a real contribution to the OOC and IC community.
Voxumo, I know that you and I don't get along. Before you respond to this, though, please try and look at this from the perspective of basic human consideration. TI is a game that is meant to be about fun, not filling quotas or dreaming up horrible IC circumstances based on difficult OOC ones. There is always a person sitting behind the screen, and I'm not a bad one; just one who has been caught in a situation with which they have been struggling to deal.
It is difficult to write this post because I don't want to sound angry, bitter, or sad. But I am, on all counts. TI is a place that I have loved for years, but I've come out of this situation feeling disheartened, shamed, and humiliated. I am not a major policy breaker; I misunderstood an activity rule, and feel as if my character and her story was destroyed beyond what is in my ability to salvage.
Everyone is entitled to their opinion; but I wanted to put a human face on this thread, and also clear up some misconceptions about me personally.
EDIT: As for less shameful: the Charali probably don't like their land being colonized. Despite prolonged (off-screen, since that's what I was assuming) efforts and hard work, a considerable force invade and push out the colonists. It's an end to a fledgling March that doesn't require putting the blame on the character (or the person going through a difficult time behind the keyboard) involved.
Temi wrote:As an additional note, Shaylei was not deleted and she is welcome to come back at whatever point she likes just without the title, to make room for other characters to apply into noble roles while we try to keep the balance of nobles carefully in check.
Thank you, Temi. However, the issue isn't whether or not I am deleted or welcome to return. It's the manner in which the situation was handled that (without speaking for too many others) bothers most who have approached me about this situation since the IC board post.