6/25/363
Hello old friend. It seems like forever since I last wrote in you. Little over two years infact. Much has happened during that time, far more than I care to write about but the key point is this; I became Earl Marshall.
I still do not know how it came about, when I was but a squire, yet I will never forget the fear I felt when I did become Earl Marshall. It was a fear like none other, fear that you would fail so horribly that all would remember you for your failure. It would appear my fear was without cause. I have yet to mess up too horribly in my duties after nearly two years. Infact the knights have seen an increase in numbers since I became Earl Marshall… but at what costs? We have lost many good men and women including Sir de Abn’zahi and Sir le Tarrow in the war against magery. I have seen corruption from within, such as my real first action as Earl Marshall of having to remove Sir de Winter as Grand Master. Yet I can not say I would change anything I have done for they were necessary actions.
I have supported men who would only stab me in the back the instant it benefits them. I have been called blunt in my methods and yet find myself having to change who I am just to serve this position. But no matter the amount of change it is never enough to appease the cursed politics of this damned city. Many would question why continue, and yet I don’t have an answer, only that I will back down. Afterall I don’t serve as Earl Marshall for the perks of it, but I serve to better the knights and hopefully guide them to an age of greatness. Afterall it is my hope that one day all knights will be able to strive to the example that Sir Argider de Roldan made, for he is what all knights should be.
I hope that one day, those that hated me for what I did will see that I did not do them out of enjoyment but because I had to.