I have never had to work so hard to make a person feel needed, wanted or worthwhile. It is terribly disheartening that people can make one person feel so worthless in their life for missteps taken. Perhaps I forgive too easily? Perhaps my heart just longs for the beating of another beside it in the darkest of hours? Whatever the reasoning may be- I will stand at his side when he needs me to. All good things will come in time, and I am terribly afraid that perhaps they will not but I keep this smile and remain optimistic on the outside while inside I feel a scared child.